The end result of so many meetings
At late night dinners with no one eating
We sit in corners and sip burnt coffee
Count the tiles upon the ceiling
Skip this pretense and cut straight to dying
Don't pick me to keep your eyes from crying
You said so much without ever parting your lips

And I keep repeating, but this payphone tele stopped receiving
Flat out of change now I'm sure you won't accept the charges
It's all the same cause by the morning I'll be halfway to Colorado
Or some place like that
You said so much without ever parting your lips

She keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die"
"It's hurting so much more to stay alive now"
She's gonna find out how much it hurts to die
She laced her perfume up with death
Feel it in my lungs
So I'll pull in the deepest breath
And drop my head

My feet do this weird thing in which they are the only part of my body that get really hot, and it's very uncomfortable.

At one time, my favorite shot was Sambuca.

I hate the girls that my guy friends choose to date and I am very protective over my boys.

I don't understand how people can abuse an animal.

I have recently fallen in love with Blueberry Coffee.

I'm afraid of success and failure all at the same time.

Sometimes I wish I was more photogenic.

I'm still looking for that perfect bikini.

I have absolutely no patience for stupid people.

Ugh, my feet are doing that hot thing right now.

I don't think I will ever be able to quit smoking.

I live 15 minutes from New York City and have only been there twice.

One of my favorite times growing up was listening to my brother play his guitar in our basement everyday after school.

My GPA in high school was 3.9.

I hate the fact that my freckles are more noticeable in the summertime.

I think my best physical feature is my eyes.

I am currently thinking about donating my eggs to someone who can't produce them.

I can put my hand flat on a table and turn my arm all the way around without bending my elbow.

That is all.

OK so once upon a time I was going to start writing some memoirs or something like it. You know something for the grandkids to eventually read. I'm sure I'll get to finish someday, but here's how it starts. It's called:
"Reflections...Memoirs of ______________. (Haven't figured that part out yet LOL)

OK, we all know what happens in the start of most everyone's life. Your parents meet and eventually have sex, with or without a condom or birth control, and sometimes a kid appears 9 months later. In this case, the condom my parents used wasn't 100% effective, so wah-lah, here I am. I'm not going to bore you with a complete background, because well that's just too much to write. So, here's a quick one.

I was born on September 30, 1979 while my family was living in Jersey City, NJ. I was the first girl born with the last name "Sobi****", so right off the bat, I was "daddy's little girl" and the most precious gift to my two older brothers....well at least that's what I tell them anyway. My Mom was so happy to finally have the little girl she always wanted. She was always dressing me up and doing my hair and all that other girlie stuff and when I started school at PS 24, I quickly became known as the best dressed little girl in school according to all of the teachers. Pretty cool, huh? Right.

Anyway, when I was around 4 years old, my Uncle had gotten really ill with Cancer. There was no one around to take care of him, so my family made the decision at his request, to move into his house in Bogota, NJ, so that my Mom could basically be his nurse. I started a new school year there and quickly made a lot of friends. I remember toward the end of my Uncle's life, my Mom was with him every moment of the day. And since my Dad was always "working," I spent more and more time with my brothers and my friends after school. Now I'm not saying that my Mom and Dad never spent time with me because they did. However, I was becoming more independent and at such a young age even while my Mom was still trying to teach me things that a "lady" should and shouldn't do, my attention was focused on the cool and interesting things that my brothers were doing. If they were working on a car, I was handing them a wrench. If they were playing football, I was snapping the ball. Next thing they knew, the little girl of the family had more boy friends than girl friends and I guess it seemed to them as if I had turned into a tomboy almost overnight.........

TO BE CONTINUED.......

Here are some facts about me that you may not already know.....

When I am at work, I bend paper clips into odd shapes.

I can't stand when people don't shut doors behind them.

My eyes are naturally blue, but change color depending on what color I wear.

As a kid, I used to draw tattoos on my Barbies, color their hair, and then cook them in my Easy Bake oven so that people would stop buying them for me.

99.9% of my socks are black.

Halloween is my favorite day.

I think that true happiness is being able to enjoy what you have and not being envious of others.

Gun's and Roses is my favorite band of all time.

I'm still a tomboy and dread having a daughter someday.

I think people who commit suicide are taking the easy way out.

Supposedly, there is documented proof that I would be considered royalty if I lived in Poland.

I'm am fed up with the generation that is just turning 18.

My appearance has the ability to spark either curiosity or fear in a small child.

I write with my right hand but paint with my left.

I used to be the only girl on an all boys' hockey team.

I'm obsessed with the story of Alice in Wonderland.

Since I was 8, I thought that the story of Anne Bolyn was interesting.

I've always dreamed of singing in a band.

My pro wrestling years were some of the best times in my life.

My son tells kids at school that I get paid to stab people.

In the winter there is a homeless veteran that sometimes sits outside Quick Chek and I buy him a hot chocolate and a roll with butter when I see him. I also give him all of Craig's brand new clothes that he forgets are in the closet.

That's all for this edition.

Totally stoked for this Saturday!!! I just won tickets to see GOLDFINGER and LESS THAN JAKE at the Stone Pony in Asbury Park. I've been listening to Goldfinger since I was about 13 years old. I finally got to see them for the first time about 5 years ago and totally cried like a little girl at a Michael Jackson concert because I was so excited when they came on. I couldn't sit still so I jumped in the circle pit and some girl got pissed at me cause I hit her while I was dancing, so she came after me and swung at me. Needless to say I ducked the punch and then broke her nose. Good times!

Got this in an email today....



To Those of You Born

1930 - 1979


TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE


1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!!

First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant.


They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes.



Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-base paints.


We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, locks on doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had baseball caps not helmets on our heads.


As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags.



Riding in the back of a pick up truck on a warm day was always a special treat.


We drank water from the garden hose and not from a bottle.

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and no one actually died from this.


We ate cupcakes, white bread, real butter and bacon. We drank Kool-aid made with real white sugar. And, we weren't overweight. WHY?


Because we were always outside, playing...that's why!


We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on.


No one was able to reach us all day. And, we were O.K.

We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times,we learned to solve the problem.

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's and X-boxes. There were no video games, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD's, no surround-sound or CD's, no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet and no chat rooms.
WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.


We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.

We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them.

Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment.
Imagine that!!


The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!

These generations have produced some of the best risk-takers problem solvers and inventors problem solvers and inventors ever.


The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.


We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned how to deal with it all.
If YOU are one of them? CONGRATULATIONS!

You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated so much of our lives for our own good.






Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it ?

You were acting so strange, that night at the bar
We were sitting by the door
A night to always remember
Like none we’d had before
You said “ Please don’t drink a lot tonight;
we have to have a chat”
I asked you what was wrong
And your reply was “Just leave it at that”
Confused, I sat and sipped my drink
Not knowing what to expect
We finished up in silence
And you went to pay the check.
I walked to the car scared to death
And sober as can be
The drive home just seemed so long
And uncomfortable to me.
You parked the car, took my hand
And led me to the park
Bad thoughts were flowing franticly
And my heart was growing dark.
We climbed up on the jungle gym
The place that “we” began
You looked so deep into my eyes
And again you took my hand.
You asked me what my intentions were
And if you were my one and only
You asked me if I loved you
And if I’d ever leave you lonely
I told you that you were the only one
And from you I’d never part
You were everything I’ve ever wanted
My life, my soul and heart.
It seemed as though we were breaking up
And I was just about to cry
You looked at me with hesitation
And we both looked to the sky
We saw a shooting star just then
As I said “I’ve loved you my whole life”
You pulled a ring out from your pocket
And asked me to be your wife
Shocked and happy, I said yes
and thanked my shooting star
This was not what I expected
From your actions at the bar.
~A. Sobieski


Ahhh, the tale of my engagement.

With coffee flavored conversations
Sitting in our booth
Relearning about each other
And relearning the truth
Laughing, flirting, and holding hands
Reminiscent of years before
We thought we had it all back then,
But now we have much more.
From pictures drawn on diner placemats
To a ring upon my finger
With everything we’ve been through,
Who knew our love would linger?
I guess fate has a funny way
Of knowing what should be
Cause here we are, still in love,
Forever you and me.
~A. Sobieski

OK so last night at about 9pm, we were just starting to close the shop and a storm hit. There was massive thunder and lightning and of course it was pouring. The winds were the worst I had ever seen, but little did I know that the rest of the night was going to even worse! Craig had driven us both in yesterday, so I didn't have the Jeep. All the roads were starting to flood, but we knew we could make it home and had to, because of our dogs. So on the way home, I saw the most lightning I have ever scene in my entire 28 years on this planet. Needless to say, I had to try to get some pics. A friend of us called and was trying to meet us at our house, but he got lost on the other side of my town because trees were going down left and right, and they kept re-routing everyone. I told him just to meet us at the Quick Check so he didn't end up where I couldn't find him. So we get off our exit on the parkway and it was pitch black. The entire town had lost power due to all the trees that came down. Now we live on a street that is enclosed within all dead ends, except for one street that is the only way in and out of our little section. Well, finally at about 9:30 pm, we make it through the town and get to that street and two trees had fallen, blocking our way in and knocking down all the power lines that were now twitching in the street. My mother in law had gone to our house right before the storm to make sure that the dogs were ok and by the time she tried to leave, she couldn't get out just like we couldn't get in. When she got in touch with me and I knew everyone was ok (including the jeep) we drove around a bit to see if anyone needed help. I swear there must have been at least two or 3 trees that had split, broken or fallen on every block in our town. Someone's Honda had gotten struck by lightning and caught fire and the firemen had to break into his house to make sure there was no one home, and turns out the family is on vacation. Long story short, at 2am this morning, the firemen finally walked us through the block to our house and we finally got home. This morning when we got up, the entire town was in total chaos. The trees are still blocking the street everywhere and still no way in or out except on foot, which we had parked the car about 10 blocks away, so that we knew we'd be able to get to work today. I have honestly never seen anything like it in my life. I'm so tired we didn't really sleep because it was 96 degrees out and were without electricity, which looks like we won't get it back until Friday. I didn't get many pics because I only had my cell phone, but here's one of the lightning on the way home and the car that was on fire.

OK, I just got a phone call at the shop (8:30pm 6/12/08) WE GOT OUR POWER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was the first person you talked to today male or female? Who was it?
Male/Craig



Have you ever actually sat down and thought about why you like the person you like?
Yes, but only because I was describing him to one of my friends that never met him.



What's the last thing you said to someone in a text & who?
"Ok, cool." to Dina.



Was your last kiss a mistake?
Not at all.


Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
Um, it's kind of hard not to when I live and work with him.



When was the last time you cried really hard?
Last week.



Who is someone you'd like to fix things with?
I think I've taken care of that.



What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Getting the A/C at the shop fixed, just in time for this nasty 98* weather



Something you're looking forward to?
Cooler weather.



What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
I should be there by 6.



Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Haven't we all?



Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Just me.



Will this weekend be a good one?
I hope so!



Why did you last cry?
Stress.



How late did you stay up last night?
Like 1 am or so.


Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
Yes.



Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes.



Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
I like where I live.



Where is your father right now?
Couldn't tell ya.



Are you a jealous person?
Not really.



Does anyone like you?
Yes.



What's annoying you right now?
I have a really bad headache.



What's something you really want right now?
For the guy getting tattooed to stop crying like a baby.


Do you love anyone?
I do.



Do you find yourself loved?
Yes.



Last friend you saw?
Rob.



Whose bed did you sleep in tuesday night?
Mine.



Plans for tonight?
Nada.



What's the greatest thing that happened to you yesterday?
Rented some movies and hung out in the A/C



What are you thinking about?
Old times.



Are your parents strict?
My mom was lol



What piercings do you want?
I dunno, I've got so many already.



Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a D?
It's possible, but I never kept track.



Have you ever fallen for your ex's best friend?
Ugh, no.



Any tattoo's you want?
Of course, I have a lot of open skin left.



Are you currently annoyed with anyone?
Nah.



Last song you listened to?
When the Angels Sing - Social Distortion.