Lost within ourselves
the rain falls with no clouds in sight.
We all struggle periodically as bittersweet anxieties capture the soul and the breathing room shrinks with each inhalation.
Arrogance falls on the lips of the dead as each corpse's tale is revealed.
Someday, the truth in this will come, though barebacked and hurtful;
our sense of failure will fade and we will rise above our countless insecurities that will forever bind us in doubt, leaving us.....
Lost within ourselves.



~A. Sobieski

Look at this place.
Death is all around me, falling from life.
Innocence cast upon the ground beneath my feet like a blanket consuming the earth.
Amazing, the living never weeps for their loss;
Still breathing and standing tall as everything succumbs to fate.
Lifeless, the limp corpses float to their final resting place in an almost angelic - like bliss.
Silent. Cold. Beautiful...........

~A. Sobieski


What do you think I was thinking when I wrote this?

Ugh. Ok, we all know that every town has ordinances as to what time working hours are for a business. In this town, we have till 10pm and the whole business has to be closed, lights off and everyone out by that time. Now most tattoo shops hours are usually 2pm-10pm. We've set our hours from 12pm-9pm, so that it will give the customer the idea that we have to be closed by 9, but it really gives us that extra hour to sterilize materials, sweep and mop, yadda yadda. People still come in at 8:45 and want to get tattooed because that's 15 minutes we're still open. Normally, towns don't have a problem with places staying open till 11, to do the cleaning or whatever. This town is so ****ing strict, since we're on a street with houses. We actually tattoo one of the town cops, and he told us that according to the town, a neighbor can call and complain that we're still open after 10 and we can get a 2500.00 fine. Bull****!!!! Anyway, I'm still here, people are still getting tattooed, and I wanna go home!

UGH!!!!! Wait can I say that again? UGH!!!!


I'm not trying to sound unpatriotic or selfish. But I just got some news today that one of my best friends may be joining the army. I have very few really close friends, in fact it's like 3 including my fiance. Last year one moved to NC, and now this one may be leaving too. I told him I wish him the best on whatever decides, but I can't say I'm not going to be sad to not be able to see him everyday...

Well, my end of the shop was on the slow end today, so I've taken the opportunity to add some friends and pop some comment cherries.....
There is some weird guy kind of stalking the shop. He stopped in one weekend because he was thinking about piercing his frenum. For those of you that don't know, it's the loose skin under the head of Capt. Winky. Anyway, I sit him down for like a half hour playing Q&A, when finally he decides he's going to do it. I take his I.D. and we process the paperwork. I asked him if he's eaten within the past 2 hours and I tell him to sit in the waiting area as I set up. I disconnect our security camera system so that I'm not catching this guys private areas on tape, lock the doors to my room that can be accessed from other rooms, sterilized the chair he will be sitting in, and then proceed to set up my needle, jewelry and tools. I call him into my room, and he then decides that he feels sick to his stomach and cannot go through with it. The entire time, I had to talk discretly because he was embarassed, and my co-workers were actually uncomfortable a bit with the situation because they had no idea what was happening, and the most I could say was that he was getting pierced. Anyway, he leaves and says he'll be back later. A few days later he comes back and asks me all the same questions and even the easy stuff like what our hours are(which are posted on the door and I've told him twice before that). He then tells me, that no one else can pierce him, it has to be me and he'll be back later. So during my down time today I was thinking about the situation and I kind of find myself a little creeped out by it. I don't know. I've never had anyone act like that before. I don't know if it's right for me to feel this way it being part of my job and all. I understand that it's a very personal piercing, and I can understand feeling a little embarassed or nervous. This guy just acts really weird and I'm actually considering turning him away if he comes in again. I've been doing this for a while now and this is the first time I've ever felt uncomfortable. Anyway, to whoever reads this, thanks for listening and feel free to leave comments.

Her face is nameless, though it shines bright enough to light your way through the darkness.
She wants to say so much to you, with her painted smile upon porcelain skin, but her tongue is too weak to lash through the silence.
Sometimes, she hides herself behind the walls leading to her heart as she uses her eyes, the voice of truth, though blackened from the pain.
It's funny, but with one blink from those eyes, she's reached deep into her heart to tell you how she feels........
Fear not the voice within and LISTEN carefully, for those eyes will capture your soul.
When they do, embrace the moment, as you fall.............
deeper into her.

~A. Sobieski

Well being that my 5 year anniversary is coming up tomorrow, I thought I'd share something that I wrote about my fiance a few years ago, for our first anniversary.....

Every morning when I wake, I reach over to feel the
warmth from your side of the bed as I whisper to
myself " How did I get so lucky to share my life with
someone so amazing?"
You have this incredible universe inside of you,
complete with the gift of laughter, the miracle of
honest friendship and the blessing of a sincere and
caring touch.
Every drop of your love brings infinite happiness to
my world and gives me a reason to open myself and
share with you all of life’s memorable moments, good
or bad.
You are the rose of my love, the sunshine in my day
and the smile of my every thought and I hold these
glowing visions of your infinite tranquilites closest
to my heart, inseperable in every way.
You are the spirit of my hopes and the passion of my
dreams, and I want to spend eternity sharing my life
with you for I am in love with you now and I will be
in love with you forever.
(But as I look into your gentle eyes, I realize,
Craig, I have been in love with you my entire life.)

~A.Sobieski